Monday, November 2, 2009

18 Years Into Forever

It was August 1990 when I came back home from the States, after graduating and working there for a year. Months of spoiling myself followed - with Mak’s cooking, sleeping and enjoying my worry-free days. I however had to get my feet back on the ground when I got this job in KLJ, to report duty on February 18 1991.

I remember clearly the day when I first saw him. The memory so fresh, as fresh as the air in my garden after a heavy downpour. So clear that I could actually feel and watch the episode as it unfolds itself right before my eyes.

It’s true when people say that some moments in our lives come with vibrant colors and shades. This surely is one of my mine.

It was my third day of working when I first met him. I was walking along the office aisle when I saw this unfamiliar guy walking my way. I could swear that I heard my heart thumping fast as he was approaching me. What’s happening to me, I wondered, and as I struggled to keep the beat back to its normal tempo, I failed... my heart actually skipped a beat, when our eyes locked.

He came to my cubicle, normally during the end of the lunch hours, when our co-workers were not back yet. We’d talk until the first footstep was heard, then he’d leave. We were discreet about this, especially when I was new and he certainly didn’t want his colleagues to know about this, yet.

By the fifth month, we realized that the story of a man and a woman, became the story of OURS. And so we got engaged in July 1991.

And became husband and wife today, 18 years ago.

It’s only been 18 years, but I just can’t imagine my life without him - my rock and foundation. These 18 years of going through life’s ups and downs. How we spent hours making a decision that we hoped could change our child’s life, only to realize a year later that we made the wrong one. How we comfort each other with unspoken words. How we learned to accept fate, and welcome possibilities into our minds.

And what it means to be unconditionally loved.

We learned a great deal, Dear Hubby and I, even when cryings and laughters became synonyms. I’m so blessed to have him and the six beautiful children. Syukur Alhamdulillah. And a great life to be in. A life that allows you to float in the air so freely, fly into the moonlight so pale, run towards the sunset so full of uncertanties, or simply walk on the clouds where your heart is filled with utter joy. I’ve been there. And I can be there whenever I want to, coz I know he’ll be there to hold my hands, walking this life together. Or catch me when I fall.

Abang,
Happy Anniversary! I’m so thankful to Allah for giving me you. The one who completes me. Alhamdulillah.

39 comments:

Mum and Roses said...

Romantic Ibu... May I be the first of outsiders to wish you Happy Anniversary....

cekmekzue said...

Salam Ja,
how sweet, how romantic, I am touched cos that's how I feel about my hubby too tough I am not soo good at expressing them with words. Happy 18th Anniversary JA and hubby. May you lead a happy and beautiful journey together with your lovely and beautiful kids and to celebrate more anniversaries together in the years to come.

syana said...

Happy Anniversary to Kak Ja & your husband :o)tq for such a touching & heartfelt entry. semoga panjang jodoh, murah rezeki & bahagia di dunia & akhirat.

anom said...

Happy Anniversary Kak Ja and hubby!! May Allah continue to bless you with peace and happiness..

Abang Sejuk said...

Kak Ja & Abg Zaki,

Happy 18th Anniversary...May Allah shower the both of u and ur family with His Blessings

edelweiss said...

Kak Ja DDI,

Selamat Ulangtahun perkahwinan yang ke 18 .... semoga u berdua di limpahkan rezeki, dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik & kebahagian & jodoh yang berpanjangan....insyallah.

candlelite dinner? honeymoon kat mana tis time? :P

MAMAMIA said...

Happy Anniversary... Wishing both of you, many more beautiful years to come

min said...

JA....
so sweet... happy anniversary... and to many more years.. to grow old together.. with so much love..

Chahya said...

K.Ja DDI,
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
Congratulations!
Love means finding perfection in our imperfect selves.
Enjoy the presence of things went through well. Congratulations again.

tireless mom said...

Happy 18th Anniversary DDI. May the love and happiness live forever.

Daalia said...

Happy Anniversary Hamiza and Hubby ! Really nice knowing you dear, macam dah kenal lama .... :-) take care

- Daalia -

Sakinah said...

Dear Ja,

Happy 18th anniversary to u and hubby. May ur life be showered with lots of luv from people around u.

There's lots of things I could learn from u to raise ahli syurga.

Ada p 18th honeymoon ka?

Amir Hazree said...

Kak Ja & Abg Zaki,

Selamat Ulangtahun Perkahwinan ke 18. Semoga terus berkekalan for another 100 years!!!Kak Ja, your 1st day kat tempat kerja sama ler dgn my birthday..18th February!!!

yus said...

Ja,
Happy Anniversary ke 18!!! Semoga Allah memanjangkan jodoh dan melimpahkan rezeki buat u and family. Syahdunya....

Ibunim said...

Ja, Happy anniversary..May you find happiness and laughter in more years to come....

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ComeyBelako said...

hepi anniversary kak. admire ur passion as a mom & wife.

wanshana said...

Dearest Ja,

Aihhhh...this is such a heart-warming entry :) So, truly cinta pandang pertama lah ni, ya? ;)

Happy 18th Anniversary to you and your beloved hubby. May your life be filled with love and joy always...

Uncle Lee said...

Hello Ibu, thats a beautiful love story....with his first hello, he gave a new meaning to your life.
Enjoyed reading this experiences.
Waa, love at first sight. I was very careful this first sight business, I always looked twice or three times, ha ha.
You have a nice weekend, Ibu.
If free drop by my pondok.

mamasita said...

DDI..you got me teary-eyed!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to you and your darling abang! Sorry lah lambat jengok!
Semoga panjang umur dalam kesihatan yang sentiasa baik, kebahgiaan yang tak terhingga serta dapat kejayaan dunia dan akhirat!I love your love-story!!

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

TQ Mum and Roses... who says you’re an outsider? We are cyber-friends kan :)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Hi Zue,
Dah 3 bulan dah ... hahaha.. baru I reply this comment. Teruk betui I ni...

Anyway, TQ so much for your do’a. May all of us be blessed with beautiful life!

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

TQ for the doa, Syana dear. Ameeen...

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Salam Anom,
TQ and back at you dear. I’m so happy to hear the good news. Take care, ok?

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Ja,
TQ na..Ameen... Ada lebih dak lauk pengantin?

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Mynn,
TQ and ameen. Mana ada honeymoon... tahun ni kot..hehehehe...

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Mamamia,
TQ for your do’a. Love your new blog :)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Min my lunch buddy ;)
TQ... jom lunch!

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Chahya,
So true.. and TQ :)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Yatt,
TQ TQ.. (after3 months baru nak kata TQ!)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Lea,
Betul.. betul.. you too, take care ok?

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Sakinah,
TQ... may our lives as special parents be filled with good health, serenity and happiness.
Tak pi honeymoon mana pun...

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dai’e dear,
TQ... wah... lagi 6 hari anniversary hari masuk kerja lah pulak!

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Yusssss..... TQ... Ameen. Bila nak mai KL lagi?

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

TQ Kak Anim... Ameen. Bila nak belanja Starbucks Caramel Macchiato??

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Hi ComeyBelako,
TQ dear... I’ve been to your blog... great :)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

TQ Shana dear. Yeap, you can say that..hahaha...

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

TQ U.Lee... been away from the blogosphere for a while, now getting back on track :)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Mamasita dear, TQ na... I pun lambat jugak balas comments ni... punya la haru!