Wednesday, July 14, 2010

To Raihana

To my beautiful friend, my confidante,
I know it’s hard for you to accept what’s happening in your life right now. The life you thought would be void of cruelty and madness. I know it’s even harder for you to wear that fake smile to show the world that you’re not hurting. I know it hurts, dear. It hurts so bad that even I can feel your pain.

If only we could go back to change things to the way we want them to happen. If only that could be done. Mistakes are made, I know, but it depends on how they happened. How severe those mistakes were. How ugly the actions were that you’d want to puke and cringe just thinking about them.. How dirty the mistakes were that they can’t be erased with anything....

Except TAUBAT.

Only taubat will be the answer. But the person who made those mistakes will have to give his all. But did he? Or will he? After all these years, and after all those so-called mistakes, will he change?

I know you’re a giver, dear. You’re the kind of person who’d give the shirt off her back. You believe that people can change for the better. You’re willing to take the risk. Thus you ignored everything around you. The others who love you. Those who care for you. Those who’re part of you in the whole episodes of your life.

Sigh. There are so many things I want to say to you. But I just don’t want to lose you.

Sigh.

10 comments:

Mak Njang said...

Ja,

I am sure berat your eyes memandang, berat lagi bahu Raihana memikul.

Stay by her side no matter what the outcome is. Only Raihana knows what is best for Raihana.

May Allah swt give us the strength to face HIS tests.

Wallahu'alam.

Daphne Ling said...

Hi Aunty Ja,

You ok ke?

*Hugs*

cekmekzue said...

Salam Ja, good to see that u r back.take care you.....

edelweiss said...

kak ja..

(((hugs)))

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Dear Mak Njang,
Yeap, I agree... but sometimes when something bad happens to you, you'll be so traumatized that you just don't see the choices of paths available to you. And you choose the dangerous path.

That's why Raihana doesn't know what's best for Raihana at the moment. But that's her life. The people who love her are watching her with eyes welling up with tears.
Very sad.

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Hi Daphne,
I'm ok.. hahaha.. altho I'm still trying digest what Raihana's doing to herself.

Take care ya Daph :)

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Zue dear,
Hope to see you this Raya. And I'll definitely order that mouth watering Oreo cake from you!

Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Mynn dear,
(((((BIG HUGS)))))

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Dalam Dakapan Ibu said...

Salam Im Daniel,
Maaf kerana mengambil masa yg sebegini lama untuk membalas komen ini.
I'll email you, ok?
TQ.